I am a bad blogg mother

I have not written or even looked at my blog for ages. It have felt completely overwhelming, and I have not had the energy. I can also get really interested in something, start out big and then realize, this was so hard to keep up. I do not want to. Most things I do goes that way, and it is not at all fun. I change interests a lot, oh, maybe I can try that, or that, or that. But yeah, it never works out in the end.

Warhammer, my husband made this for me, because I asked him to. It is mine, and mine only, I do not even play, I like the figure. I do read the novels though.

I have been reading the horrornovels and also other. I just finished the books about Eisenhorn and Ravernor by Abnett, and I really liked them.

This spring, well, it has been a hard one. My daughter have had problems, she is almost a teenager, she is going to be 12 this year. She acts like a teenager one minute, then like a little kid the next. The trouble getting her up foor school was hard. But now it is the summer holiday. My daughter stays inside all the time and play games and watch tv. I have realised that she and I have different stim, she likes to make noises, and also look a lot of stuff at the same time. That is exhausting to listen to, for me.

But we have done half of 2020 now, it has been, interesting. I saw that Kanye West where going to run for president, I have no idea if he is kidding or not. And Elon Musk supports him, again, I have no idea if that is a joke or not. I am very out of touched with the news, before I read news everyday, but now, no. I do not really feel up to it, it drains me so hard that I can not function.

In the fall my daughter starts a new class, and they change shool local again. This is much closer to home, so I have hope that it will get easier up ahead for her to go to school. She had trouble with getting to the school because of the distance. But it will get better.

Thin House Challenge

I found it in YouTube, in a channel with James Turner. He put up his build, and also the shell-build so that you can download that and build your thin, tiny home. I uploaded mine to the gallery today, I hope someone likes it.

I you want try yourself, look for: TheSimSupply, that is his nick. If you want to see my build, search after Ingemo.

It was fun, but stairs take up so much space. I have been muttering about stairs the thole buildingtime.

Monday, new week

I had a pretty good weekend this time, especially sunday. My husband was going to buy new headphones, and me and my daughter went to. We also thought we could turn in our daughters phone, she has dropped it to many times and the screen it in shards. That did not go totally well with my daughter, she would have no phone! Her life was ruined! She did get to borrow mine later, but that is not really good either, but it works. She was mostly upset about her Harry Potter game.

I also finally bought the Supernatural cookbook. I have to have some things left of it, even when the series end. I will make Pudding!

Sims starter house

I also build houses in sims. I did a tiny starter house, tier-2. With a pool, so that they do not get to hot. I am really happy that there are stuff that are free so you can build a house that looks almost okay, but a sim can still buy it for a starter.

So, all in all, I think I am okay. I think that I feel alright, but I am not sure either. I do feel like I am always on edge, and there is a lot of sensory overload right now. It is to bright, to much noise. I have no idea how to make it better.

I thought my cat would die….

So, I have not been at all good at writing a blog. I am sorry for that, I get this way, I through myself in to stuff and then I forget them for a while. That is one of my troubles with my autism and add.

Anyway, my cat. I really thought my cat where going to die. Last thursday he where not himself, he was really tired, I could hardly get any response from him. He seemed dizzy, and had trouble standing on his right legs. So off to the veterinarian he went. 5000 swedish krona later, and the result was in. There was nothing wrong with him, the bloodtest where perfect. We took him home, he was tired the rest of the day but now he is like himself again. I told my husband that Emrys is a secret agent, and he was due to drop off information to another cat at the veterinarian. That sounds about right, but next time I hope he can do a skype call or something.

But I am really happy that he is fine, he reminded me of my first cat, his kidneys stopped working and they could not get them to start again. He was an older cat, but we thought we did have more time with him.

SimsBuilding

So, off I go building another house in sims. It has been a while since I did that. I dowloaded a lot of mods and cc, and now my sims are wearing victorian clothes and I love it. I wish I had a nightgown like that, a white, long cotton nightgown, but that seems really hard to get. I have looked.

Pancakes

My daughter got up and made pancakes for breakfast. I woke up right when they where done. She went to school also, they are not closed here. Not yet, I do not know if they will.

Emrys

So now I am home alone, and it is glorious!

Quarantine, and burning down the microwave oven.

Well, I did some quarantine. I have not been sick, I had a cold, no Corona here. Me and my daughter has been at home with colds, and it has been a little bit of a challenge. My daughter wants to go to school, and I think she can go tomorrow. She is bored, but she has done her homework, and she has been out walking the cat. Yes, the cat. Apparently he went under a porch and did not want to leave.

She has also told me she wants an sibling. It is just because she has been forced to stay at home, but she does not really understands that is not really possible. She gave the suggestions that we should adopt a child. She will have to be satisified with the cats as siblings. They can be annoying as smaller siblings can, so why not.

It is good for him that he is sweet and stuff. Both our cats are sweet, and lovely. Seilna likes to lie beside me when I am reading, it gets a little how, but cat, who can say no to cat.

Little cats

I also managed to set fire to the microwave oven. I was heating up my wheat pillow, and it caught on fire. The microwave was toast, and the wheat pillow also. We have a new microwave oven, but no new wheat pillow. It was no fun at all.

So I have been reading, playing sims and feeling stressed. I have not been up to writing anything for a long time. I will try to write more, I like writing a blog, for some reason. It is destressing.

Well, I hope everyone is safe, and have enough toiletpaper. Think one day we will remember this time as not the time of a pandemic, but the time the toiletpaper where no where to be found.

I am stress eating, and my daughter feares Corona.

Many people would think that I have nothing to stress over. I guess it is a little bit of this, and a little bit of this.

My spoons are really low today, and my home and all in it suffers from it. Mostly me and the housework. After we had guest over for my birthday, I realised that one of our cats had peed in my husbands wardrobe. Lots more too wash. My daughter has not been to school, when I try to get her to go she has meltdowns. They can last hours if they are really bad.

Spoon theory

Of you where thinking more why I was talking about spoons, I mean like that. Not this:

Spoon.

So, my spoons feel like they are gone today. Mostly.

Oh, and watch Britannia. It is wonderful.

Saturday at town

I got two new books today, one warhammer horror, and one book I have been waiting to buy, it is totally new. It will be good to have some new books to read. I like horror, I really like horror. You can say that I love it.

Anxious

I have been feeling a bit anxious today. Perhaps it is because it is my birthday soon. I do not really know why I am anxious really, and I hate it. I wish I could just make it go away.

Vegetables

I have really trouble with eating vegetables. So I got the brilliant idea that I could make smoothies and drink it. It is easier to drink I think. So I mixed some stuff, and:

My husband thought it was terrible, but I guess I can drink it. I want to get more vegetables and less candy in my diet. I really think I need it, because I know it is good for you. And I feel a little, old. I need to start excercising also, but I do not know what I will do. I need more than walking I think. But I do not want to go alone to swim either, but I think that is something I could do.

I got a nice painting today, or, it is one I will paint myself. Paint with numbers, with a bear. I love it.

I am so tired

I want to sleep, to crawl under blankets, lie in the darkness. Lie there, and watch the darkness, feel my eyes relax.

The bedl innen is newly washed, I do not have to go up early tomorrow. I will lie here in my bed, in the darkness, and savour the time I have here.

This is God Night, I hope you sleep well.

Autistic Nerdmother

Sooooooooon

I did it, I pre-purchased the next expansion in World of Warcraft. I will try playing tomorrow, of my husband can help me with my computer. Apperantly the grafic card was not up to date.

The Unwilling

I read this book today, I just flew through it. I actually started reading it because I had to Read something, and there it was. I loved it, I think you can guess that. This is the kind of book I love, and I want more like it.

The Long Lankin

“Childrens Book”

This was Said to be a childrens book, but I felt, okay, I will read it. It plats out during the second world war in Britain, two childrens are sent out to their aunt in the country that they never meet. But well, childrens should not be at that place. It is the creepiest, most horrifying book I have ever read. Perhaps some of it comes with the authors really good ability to describe the surroundings. I can see the house in my mind.

Emrys with a new toy

And of course, a picture of one of the kittys. Because I know everyone loves cats.

This is a good way for me to talk about my interests. Perhaps someone ser my recommendations and try them, books or series.

What would you want to know?

I am autistic, and it is how I am. It can be hard explaining to other people, who are not autistic. If anyone reads this, and have questions, feel free to ask about it. I will not take offence, and I only kill people in sims.