I continued with my picture I bought at my birthday, paint-by-numbers. A bear of course. I got a little confused when it said I should mix blue and brown, for the fur on the bear, but it actually was a good color. So bears are brown and blue. My world has changed.
This is what I have, I recommend it, quite soothing. I do not think it will turn out great, but better than me trying to paint a bear myself. That it for sure.
And if you excuse me, I will go and watch stop motion clips on youtube of people building houses in sims.
I got two new books today, one warhammer horror, and one book I have been waiting to buy, it is totally new. It will be good to have some new books to read. I like horror, I really like horror. You can say that I love it.
I have been feeling a bit anxious today. Perhaps it is because it is my birthday soon. I do not really know why I am anxious really, and I hate it. I wish I could just make it go away.
I have really trouble with eating vegetables. So I got the brilliant idea that I could make smoothies and drink it. It is easier to drink I think. So I mixed some stuff, and:
My husband thought it was terrible, but I guess I can drink it. I want to get more vegetables and less candy in my diet. I really think I need it, because I know it is good for you. And I feel a little, old. I need to start excercising also, but I do not know what I will do. I need more than walking I think. But I do not want to go alone to swim either, but I think that is something I could do.
I got a nice painting today, or, it is one I will paint myself. Paint with numbers, with a bear. I love it.
I did it, I built a bear cave. I tried to make it look a little good, and it it of course of grid. So she have books and music to entertain herself. She has also a dog that looks kind of a bear. And she wears only a bear costume, all the time. I think it will be fun playing with this one, I can pretend I am a bear also.
If someone wants to download these, if you want to be a bear to, my name in sims gallery is Ingemo. Come on, I know you want to Bear It!
I know I get a little fixated with stuff. I have some things I am really into, and it can also go in waves. I do like to read, and I read a lot. I usually do not give up on a book, even if I think it is quite bad, I want to know how it ends.
But right know I am very into sims, I like playing, I like building. I do wish I had an more creative interest, like sewing or painting, but I can not seem to do that. I am clumsy, I drop stuff, go into things, and it also affects that. It is so hard to do these things for me, my hands does not want to do what I want them do do. Clumsy there to. I know people say, you just have to practice, but I do not think it is. Perhaps that is why I like building in sims, it feels like I finally can do something that is a little creative.
If I can do that, perhaps I can do something with my life in my future. I feel like I am drifitng along, not contributing at all.
The thing is, when I think about finishing school, getting a job, I feel panic.Then I have to meet other people, and I have to talk to them. I feel it is really hard doing that, becuase it is hard trying to interpret what they are saying. It is not just words, it is body language and it feels most people do not speak clearly. I was talking to the people here that handles autistic people, and they signed me up for social interaction training. I really do not feel that would help me, but that is the help you can get. It feels like I get sent to more training in masking, and that is not what I want at all. I want to learn not to mask as much, I feel like my masking is bad for my mental health. It is stressful, it is exhausting. Whenever I have been out I feel like I have to go to bed and sleep for a week. I wish I could learn not to mask, and that people would accept me anyway.
One another note, we discovered today that Emrys, our big georgeous cat, is a little afraid of socks. We were sorting socks on the bed, he came up and when he saw the socks he jumped high. He was very sucpicious about these socks. I do not think I have met a cat that was afraid of socks before
I finished another house in Sims, it did not taken long because it was quite simple. Red house with white corners.
But then I asked my daughter what I should do next, and she joked that I should do a Bear house. I really like bears a lot, and she knows it. But I love the idea, I could make it look like a cave, and my sim would have a bear suit on all the time. And she will perhaps be a secret agent.
BTW, if anyone wants to download my houses in Sims I am called Ingemo, and I have uploaded the three houses I built in the gallery.
I am new at this, but I thought I would give it a try. It is overwhelming to say the least with all these choices for a design for a blog. I only want to make myself a little blog, that perhaps will interest some people.
I am a swedish woman, that tragically is not a bear in real life. I do have a lot of free time, that I hope to find a way to fill. I do not work, because of my mental health. You could say it is a little, bad. I am also autistic, I was diagnosed with asperger when I was an adult. I have been masking my whole life, and it takes it toll.
I see this blog like a way to connect with other people that have some of the same experiences, with mental health and asperger. I am also a mother to a daughter, that is also diagnosed with asperger. It has it challenges for both of us, and I would like to write about it.
I was thinking a little about what I wanted with this blog, I think I have some idea about why I write, and also why I choose to write in english.
I want more people to read it and connect with more people
I want to practice writing in english
I want to practice writing overall
I want to tell about living with mental health problems