Blogg mummy

Well, I Will try to write more often. I have been in a down period, I have mostly read and played Sims.

I do feel like a failure in life, 40 years old, not working and overweight. This is not how I imagained My life gooing. Granted, My dreams where a bit, over the to top, but anyway.

I am smiling. this is how I smile for a camera.

But anyway, I got complimented om a house I built in Sims, so that is great. And me and My husband have shipped our daughter to her grandparents. The thing we get most excited about, now we can eat what we like, without trying to get our daughter too eat to. I think a lot of parents can relate.

I am a bad blogg mother

I have not written or even looked at my blog for ages. It have felt completely overwhelming, and I have not had the energy. I can also get really interested in something, start out big and then realize, this was so hard to keep up. I do not want to. Most things I do goes that way, and it is not at all fun. I change interests a lot, oh, maybe I can try that, or that, or that. But yeah, it never works out in the end.

Warhammer, my husband made this for me, because I asked him to. It is mine, and mine only, I do not even play, I like the figure. I do read the novels though.

I have been reading the horrornovels and also other. I just finished the books about Eisenhorn and Ravernor by Abnett, and I really liked them.

This spring, well, it has been a hard one. My daughter have had problems, she is almost a teenager, she is going to be 12 this year. She acts like a teenager one minute, then like a little kid the next. The trouble getting her up foor school was hard. But now it is the summer holiday. My daughter stays inside all the time and play games and watch tv. I have realised that she and I have different stim, she likes to make noises, and also look a lot of stuff at the same time. That is exhausting to listen to, for me.

But we have done half of 2020 now, it has been, interesting. I saw that Kanye West where going to run for president, I have no idea if he is kidding or not. And Elon Musk supports him, again, I have no idea if that is a joke or not. I am very out of touched with the news, before I read news everyday, but now, no. I do not really feel up to it, it drains me so hard that I can not function.

In the fall my daughter starts a new class, and they change shool local again. This is much closer to home, so I have hope that it will get easier up ahead for her to go to school. She had trouble with getting to the school because of the distance. But it will get better.

Twitter and sims 4

My contribution to the Thin House Challenge

So, I realised that you can share your buildings in the sims on twitter, so that more people can see them. Problem: I did not have an twitter account, but I do now. I joined twitter for sharing houses I built in the sims. Is that weird? No, it is not weird. I like building, it is relaxing. Okay, I did get stressed when I built the very thin house, because, STAIRS! Why are there not spiral stairs in the sims? Why are there not bunkbeds? It feels like a lot of things are missing, and I wonder why they can not fix that.

But anyway, I got twitter, I linked it to this blog, and I will share houses I built in the sims. I think this is my special interest for a while. Yey for having autism.

Thin House Challenge

I found it in YouTube, in a channel with James Turner. He put up his build, and also the shell-build so that you can download that and build your thin, tiny home. I uploaded mine to the gallery today, I hope someone likes it.

I you want try yourself, look for: TheSimSupply, that is his nick. If you want to see my build, search after Ingemo.

It was fun, but stairs take up so much space. I have been muttering about stairs the thole buildingtime.

Monday, new week

I had a pretty good weekend this time, especially sunday. My husband was going to buy new headphones, and me and my daughter went to. We also thought we could turn in our daughters phone, she has dropped it to many times and the screen it in shards. That did not go totally well with my daughter, she would have no phone! Her life was ruined! She did get to borrow mine later, but that is not really good either, but it works. She was mostly upset about her Harry Potter game.

I also finally bought the Supernatural cookbook. I have to have some things left of it, even when the series end. I will make Pudding!

Sims starter house

I also build houses in sims. I did a tiny starter house, tier-2. With a pool, so that they do not get to hot. I am really happy that there are stuff that are free so you can build a house that looks almost okay, but a sim can still buy it for a starter.

So, all in all, I think I am okay. I think that I feel alright, but I am not sure either. I do feel like I am always on edge, and there is a lot of sensory overload right now. It is to bright, to much noise. I have no idea how to make it better.

I thought my cat would die….

So, I have not been at all good at writing a blog. I am sorry for that, I get this way, I through myself in to stuff and then I forget them for a while. That is one of my troubles with my autism and add.

Anyway, my cat. I really thought my cat where going to die. Last thursday he where not himself, he was really tired, I could hardly get any response from him. He seemed dizzy, and had trouble standing on his right legs. So off to the veterinarian he went. 5000 swedish krona later, and the result was in. There was nothing wrong with him, the bloodtest where perfect. We took him home, he was tired the rest of the day but now he is like himself again. I told my husband that Emrys is a secret agent, and he was due to drop off information to another cat at the veterinarian. That sounds about right, but next time I hope he can do a skype call or something.

But I am really happy that he is fine, he reminded me of my first cat, his kidneys stopped working and they could not get them to start again. He was an older cat, but we thought we did have more time with him.

SimsBuilding

So, off I go building another house in sims. It has been a while since I did that. I dowloaded a lot of mods and cc, and now my sims are wearing victorian clothes and I love it. I wish I had a nightgown like that, a white, long cotton nightgown, but that seems really hard to get. I have looked.

Paint-by-numbers

I continued with my picture I bought at my birthday, paint-by-numbers. A bear of course. I got a little confused when it said I should mix blue and brown, for the fur on the bear, but it actually was a good color. So bears are brown and blue. My world has changed.

This is what I have, I recommend it, quite soothing. I do not think it will turn out great, but better than me trying to paint a bear myself. That it for sure.

And if you excuse me, I will go and watch stop motion clips on youtube of people building houses in sims.

Pancakes

My daughter got up and made pancakes for breakfast. I woke up right when they where done. She went to school also, they are not closed here. Not yet, I do not know if they will.

Emrys

So now I am home alone, and it is glorious!

Quarantine, and burning down the microwave oven.

Well, I did some quarantine. I have not been sick, I had a cold, no Corona here. Me and my daughter has been at home with colds, and it has been a little bit of a challenge. My daughter wants to go to school, and I think she can go tomorrow. She is bored, but she has done her homework, and she has been out walking the cat. Yes, the cat. Apparently he went under a porch and did not want to leave.

She has also told me she wants an sibling. It is just because she has been forced to stay at home, but she does not really understands that is not really possible. She gave the suggestions that we should adopt a child. She will have to be satisified with the cats as siblings. They can be annoying as smaller siblings can, so why not.

It is good for him that he is sweet and stuff. Both our cats are sweet, and lovely. Seilna likes to lie beside me when I am reading, it gets a little how, but cat, who can say no to cat.

Little cats

I also managed to set fire to the microwave oven. I was heating up my wheat pillow, and it caught on fire. The microwave was toast, and the wheat pillow also. We have a new microwave oven, but no new wheat pillow. It was no fun at all.

So I have been reading, playing sims and feeling stressed. I have not been up to writing anything for a long time. I will try to write more, I like writing a blog, for some reason. It is destressing.

Well, I hope everyone is safe, and have enough toiletpaper. Think one day we will remember this time as not the time of a pandemic, but the time the toiletpaper where no where to be found.

I am stress eating, and my daughter feares Corona.

Many people would think that I have nothing to stress over. I guess it is a little bit of this, and a little bit of this.

My spoons are really low today, and my home and all in it suffers from it. Mostly me and the housework. After we had guest over for my birthday, I realised that one of our cats had peed in my husbands wardrobe. Lots more too wash. My daughter has not been to school, when I try to get her to go she has meltdowns. They can last hours if they are really bad.

Spoon theory

Of you where thinking more why I was talking about spoons, I mean like that. Not this:

Spoon.

So, my spoons feel like they are gone today. Mostly.

Oh, and watch Britannia. It is wonderful.